Where do I start, clearly I’m not the master blogger I hopped to be. I’d like to say that between juggling work and school there is not enough time to write… But I know others (Cou*LaurenGH*) worked on their masters and still managed a daily blog… HMM. I will blame it on trying to be a decent worker, a good student an okay wife and a fabulous pregnant person.
I can’t even say I’ve been any of those things mentioned. In fact I’ve been bone tired at work, get A’s by some miracle of God (or an angel changing scantron sheets) am probably the worst pregnant wife possibly imagined on the face of the earth now or EVER and detest the swollen, ungainly and down right uncomfortable state of pregnancy (although I love Luca with all my heart already). Uggh. It’s so frustrating! To think of 14-15 more weeks of this is disheartening… And even though I’m over the hill and rolling down the other side towards my due date I am completely overwhelmed! I will update these areas in my life below:
Baby Luca: The good news is that Luca is doing great! We’ve had to go in for several growth scans and an echocardiogram (all of which came back negative/ or showing great results!). Luca is growing strong with no abnormalities that they could see (THANK GOD). We go again Tuesday the 30th so I will try and put some new pictures up.
School: Taking 3 classes this summer and one more in the fall, after this I should have one year of clinicals and can be a RN!! I don’t know where Luca or work fall in to that mix but I’m just taking things one day at a time.
Marriage: unfortunately for Scott pregnancy hormones have made it so I can’t even stand the smell of him~ Definitely not a good thing…(and Scott’s not even a bad smelling guy) to put it in to perspective I think my old shampoo smells awful. It seems difficult to spend quality time with one another that’s not rushing out to work, eating dinner going to bed. I find myself really missing the engagement period when there was a lot more effort on both parties to be interesting and engaging. I think the problem for me is that Scott gets a ton of shoulder to shoulder time… (Meaning he thinks we hang out too much because we are always together, in the car, while he works on things, while cooking dinner etc.) But what I really need is an hour of solid face to face time… where we actually talk and relate and share. I’m finding marriage is challenging because when you are with some you love this much, and feel so comfortable around… you really can be your worst. So it’s been interesting trying to find ways to make sure there is still a ton of good in the mix. I will say one thing, Scott is probably the most patient, understanding person in the whole world… and he must love me past the point of distraction to put up with the crap I’ve been putting him through! So keep this in mind if you’re tying the knot or already married, don’t take yourself too seriously, forgive quickly, and find ways to stay engaged… because there is actually a lot of work involved in marriage. GO figure!
Pregnancy: I’m fat. My ankles swell at night. I’m exhausted.
Okay that’s all for now. I have a ton more to write about the following (writing these for my own benefit, pregnancy amnesia has struck hard and I wont remember even wanting to write about this stuff)
- Midwives
- Voice teacher
- House
Till next time (hopefully sooner then when Luca is 1)
The musings of a mother, wife and traveller of life
