In awe of you

I love the words to that song
"You are Near"
In awe of You we worship
And stand amazed at Your great love
We're changed from glory to glory
We set our hearts on You our God
Now Your presence fills this place
Be exalted in our praise
As we worship I believe
You are near

Last night waiting to drift in to sleep I thought "God, I love you..." and I was so amazed, not because I haven't thought this before, or said; but because they were words from my heart, spoken to God with true sincerity, I don't know how to describe it. I'm not implying that I wasn't sincere in saying it in the past, it's more that I WANTED to be sincere, I wanted to love God I wanted to, perhaps at the same time being unsure if I really did. As my heart said these words, I felt true joy in knowing that this prayer for me has been answered... "God" I would pray, let me love you, truly love you! and not out of hope of gain or for a get out of jail free card, a real love, like you love me!" I know it sounds silly, but I want a heart like Enoch's, are heart so pleasing to God that he would capture me up with him in heaven, AGAIN not so i wouldn't taste death but so I can be in the presence of God who is Joy eternal. :) ha ha it makes me smile to think about him, the master shepherd and the gentleness in which he holds me!

So tonight I stand in awe and amazed at his great love! So grateful that he has shown me in his infinite mercy how to love him in a way to make me want to steadfastly seek him.
~That would be my prayer, that I would love him so much my feet would fly away from sin and run in to his arms.

Here's a great verse, I just read to sum up my thoughts!

Psalm 51:9-10
Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

mmmm, so happy!